shiyun is confused because her heart is mixed up with different feelings ..
she knows that that love is still there , but she just does not dare to face it.
she wants to return to the days before that night , but there is not time machine in the world now .
she hates the comments by those ppl who dun understand what is happening , but she dun really blame them for it .
she knows that ppl care but she dun like their way of thinking, because it is somewhat different from hers .
she cannnot put those down because it matters a lot to her .
she hates to hurt anyone especially her love .
she hopes that everything will not go against her wishes .
she wants ppl to support her .
she is to blame .
she needs a soul mate.
9 is still her favorite number .
she is not happy .
hard ?
or soft?
